Bright Side wasn't only my best friend; she was like my other half... the other half of my brain, the other half of my conscience, the other half of my sense of humor, the other half of my creativity, the other half of my heart. How do you go back to doing what you did before, when half of you is gone forever?
When I opened Bright Side
I had no clue what was in store. I went in blind and came out shining.
When I opened Gus
I knew what was coming. I knew Kim would give me heart and soul. Even though I knew Gus would break my heart, I knew the path in front of him would gut me. I knew my emotions would be on my sleeve.
After Bright Side
I undoubtedly knew one thing, Gus would be EPIC.
It so was.
The sweet and sorrowful journey of deep pain and sadness, the yearning for what's on the other side. The want to be "that" Gus again. Gus was a favorite character in my favorite Bright orange book. He was lost and broken. Just as we all suspected. Just as we all were
. The mountainous hill Gus traveled in the beginning was where I felt the most melancholy. His choices paved a grim road. He wasn’t himself. He wasn’t our Gus. Her Gus.
He was just there. I had to bite my tongue and hope he would see his other side. Yeah, in another month, I'll still be in this sinking ship. It's going down fast. I feel sorry for the rest of them because this sonofabitch doesn't even have life preservers.
Alone. I think that's what bothers me most about losing Bright Side. With her I was never alone. Even when she lived hundreds of miles away, I was never alone.
The awesome way Kim writes day to day really puts the reader in the hell Gus is in. The mourning. The sorrow. The bad choices. The conflict. Then someone so NOT wanted is in the picture and I can’t tell you how relieved I was so see a pea size piece of light. Gah, I don’t even know what to say exactly about this character because it isn’t fair to YOU to spoil it. But I loved the LONG growth these two characters traveled. There wasn’t any quick perfection here. It was work. It was hard. But it was beautiful to watch. The gain both received is well worth the enormous amount of pain they had to hurdle over. They strengthen in a very unorthodox way but for them it’s what needed to happen. Mentally these two bonded over old fashion friendship. Which enhanced my fall for them. I haven't written like that since Bright Side was around. I always feel her in my heart these days, because that's where she lives. I walk around with her inside me every day. And it doesn't hurt anymore.
The presence I felt tonight wasn't internal. It was physical. Tangible. Like someone was in the room with me, feeding me. Little did I know, she was just on the other side of the door. Filling my soul.
Just as the title says Gus; this was certainly all about him, it was about Bright Side.Katie.
God, so much Katie. Anytime she was mention or just thought about my throat closed up and my heart raced. We were able to get a glimpse into many characters we fell hard for. Two in particularly. I loved what we had but heavens above I could have had more. So much more. "I miss Katie, Gus. And I'll always love her. Not a day goes by that I don't think about her. It's not pain; it's joy. I'm living my life for her. I have no intention of wasting it."
Final thoughts: You won’t be disappointed. You will feel and break. That’s guaranteed. But come the end you will have no disappointments. This was another EPIC book by one totally EPIC author. Reply